~love
life, engage in it, give it all you've got. love it with a passion,
because life truly does give back, many times over, what you put into
it~
Maya Angelou
And here we are, the final week of class! This has been an experience:) I have learned a lot, and gained so much. I hope all of you have as well.
My personal assessments...some have changed, others have not.
My psychological assessment has remained an 8. I had worked very hard on this aspect of my life before started this class-in fact, my journey led me to take this class to gain more insight. I've been seeing a fabulous psychotherapist for the last year, after being put through sheer hell with my oldest son. I worked very hard to deal with what he had done to his unsuspecting family, and after about 8 months, went from weekly visits to monthly visits. I am doing well here. This class has helped me "let go" of even more of the pain he caused, and be able to move on with his decisions to take over and basically run his own, lost, life. I went to the ends of the earth and spent 10's of thousands of dollars to assist him, but quitting highschool and moving in with dad to "do drugs" won out. He's almost 18, and I did all I could. I was advised by many to "let it go". Hard, but the pain he put on my younger kids was not worth any more fight. Long story. I am healthy here though. Conflicted at times, but have come to terms.
Spiritually, I have moved from a 5 in week 3, to an 8. I have rediscovered my spiritaul self, and enjoy my time of meditation and ritual. It has calmed me and brought me great peace. My head is clearer, and I see each day for what it is, instead of simply plowing through my schedules and to do lists.
Physically, I went from a 7 to a 9. Thank you Ms Jillian Michaels for kicking my tail each day as I come off of a terrible injury this past winter. My pinched nerve had me flat on my back from November to January, with major surgery scheduled. Physical therapy got me back on my feet, and I started a workout program with a right arm that looked like spaghetti. Two months later, I am doing serious workouts-30 Day Shred and more, and busting my tail, strong as an ox, pumped for more. I am even boxing again! I dropped the 10 pound I had gained from my "flat on my back eating junk food" injury, and lost 7 plus inches. My heart rate is strong, my endurance is great, and my muscle tone is back:) I will challenge you all to pushups!
I set goals to exercise daily, taking one day off a week, and recorded all of it for motivation. I practiced moments of silence and gratitude daily and learned to enjoy the peace of my mind and heart. I have discussed this class in great detail with my psychotherapist and developed more ways to find my peace through meditation.
I have found a person that I once was, and with it came a new peace, a new joy in life, and better coping skills, This class help me accountable to this goals, and I so appreciate that. This, all together has been a great and rewarding experience.
I wish you all the very best:)
If you would like to continue this conversation or relationship outside of class, you are welcome to find me on facebook:) "Sami Bee" in Durham NC
I wish you all the best, and I hope to hear more about you and your journey in the near future!
Blessed Bee!
Sami, I'm very glad to read that you've progressed with your well being, not only with the help of this class, but with the help you received in the past, as well. It seems as though you've grown so much, that you feel great about yourself, those you surround yourself with, and the things you do. It can be hard to turn away from someone you care so much about, but you can only help those that are ready for it. I hope that you continue on with your goals to health and well being and would love to keep in touch; I will friend request you on FB!
ReplyDeleteBest wishes!
Hi Sami, I have to say I really admire you for what you have gone through and being able to pull it all together for yourself and your younger children. I am so glad to have taken this class with you and experienced all the benefits from it. Best of luck to you and I would love to keep in touch, I'll be looking you up on facebook :) Enjoy your vacation this weekend!
ReplyDeleteSami,
ReplyDeleteI ama sorry to hear that about your son, that has got to be tough to go through. Drugs is a powerful thing, i dont have any kids so i cannot relate to you, however i have just ended a relationship during this class who my bf was doing drugs. It can really destroy you. in the four months we were together he manage to put me in financial situations and bring me down in many ways without getting into details.
I am glad you have been about to rise above this and move forward. I wish you the best.
Sami, I was cheering you on as I was reading your blog. Great job on all of the progress! You have done an amazing job in all areas of this class. I am a single mom too, and I know the situation you are in. We can lose our children to their father's home because we are too strict, too mean, too whatever. I encourage you to be ready to welcome your son back into your life when he goes through this very rough time. He will make it to the other side and see the wisdom of your parenting. I am sure he will be forever grateful for the love and boundaries you gave him for so many years. It's just so hard to watch them be destructive and be able to do nothing about it. You haven't lost him, though, he has just chosen the wrong path temporarily.
ReplyDelete